I am truly grateful that she died very peacefully by the pond, of normal old age and a natural death. I tried everything I could but cant help but feel guilty for being such a coward when my ex and I had to put him down. It was hard to remove her from the screen demolished enclosure. He passed, peacefully, in my arms 15 minutes after my shower. I know it is time, but my God, as an owner you know one day it will come, but in my heart not ready.